Oh Dear, I hate when I get sappy

So, I almost posted THIS as a facebook status. I decided it was too long, and it should go HERE instead. Maybe nobody will read it. I don't really care. It's just how I feel RIGHT now, and I wanted to get it out. So in my blog it shall go....

Random thoughts....My mother had my sister at 38 years old, and unfortunately my mother passed away when she was 39 years old, in 2000. I was 20 then. The previous year, we lost my poppop Conrad. In 2002, my brother Eric was killed at 16 yrs old. I had my first child, Keith, due to miracles of science. Don't believe it? Ask me. He was born at 26 weeks and given a 25% chance of living. He is going to be 6 this year. I never was supposed to have children, according to drs in 2001. I now have TWO very beautiful children, and one angel baby. Growing up was not like most children. We did live in and out of battered women's shelters. I wanted better for my children, and facts prove they do have better. I may not be perfect, I never will be. I'll never look like a model, and it doesn't matter to me. I have a heart of gold. Sometimes we aren't always dealt the cards that are perfect, so take you cards and play your game the best you can. I love my life and everything in life that has been negative, I have learned from, and made it better, and have come out way stronger. Sure, I could sit on a rock and pout, but why? Life's far too short to dwell on negative, when there is so much positive things that can be thought about. Don't forget about your negative events, but don't let them eat at you and change who you are, and can be.